Over the past few years I have been wanting to post my own personal views on different
aspects of our community from my own experiences over the past 50 + years.
Even though these are mine own views and likes... of course they do not in any way make them the right ones....
again they are just from my point of view and tastes... but I would just like to share them with you.
As for what I might title these points of view and tastes...
I decided on “The G-Man Files”
So over the next few weeks or so I will give you my 2 cents on our very personal fetish.
First I would like to give a brief history on how I got here (liking the death fetish).
I remember distinctly when I was about 7 or 8 years old and playing war with of all things... a deck of playing cards.
For some reason (and I can not explain to this day) I always saved the queens till last to die... for... for some reason
it was special to me, liken to... saving the best for last.
By the time I was 10, I knew I liked seeing depictions of women being killed, for that summer (1962) is when
“Mars Attacks” cards came out and I immediately liked all the numbered cards that shown women about to die or already dead.
Also that year I started playing out female death scenes with my female cousin (she was a year younger then I ).
So I guess I mixed sex and death at a early age.
Since I first started back in the early 60’s... all the death scenes back then the victims were clothed and such...
which is why I love to see clothed women death scenes as much as nude ones.
Also back then I used to look at the Sears, Montgomery Ward catalogs and fantasize seeing the women in the
lingerie section getting killed.
Then moved up to the Playboy mags my father used to hide in his closet.
When I got in my later teens... of course I would buy my own.
I like all kinds of female death scenes, but for some reason I love shootings and stabbings the most.
Also thru-out the 60's as mentioned in one of my other threads... I really enjoyed all the
different kinds of Men Action mags which always helped one's imagination.
Back then (1960's) for the things I mentioned above... (magazines, paper back books,
trading cards, comics, catalogs) the only other thing was T.V. and movies and one
had to put any scenes that one liked into your long term memory, and if you really liked a scene...
I remember staying and watching "Vampires" 3 times... are some of the things I did before VCR's.
I even remember taking still pictures of female dead body scenes while watching a movie in a the theater.
Even I got a few off the T.V.
The only other thing I did and having 7 channels to watch then (I lived in the NYC area) I used to watch
a lot of "B" action movies that were shown usually over the weekends and try to snag a good scene or two.
Well those were the wonderful 60's (and early 70's).
I will start a new chapter soon.
Cheers, G
